The right answer isn’t the correct answer because although all the options are good, there is always a best. Sometimes what your choice wasn’t necessarily the best thing and consequences may arise from deeds you now want to take back.
We’ve all been there: the frustration, the hopelessness, the helplessness and the last missing crucial point to a borderline failed mark. Not to mention the efforts we feel wasted because although we try our best, it’s still not enough. In exams, we’re still dumbfounded as to why that answer was the correct answer. In duty, we still can’t do it perfectly no matter how easy we think it is.
The thing is this…
It’s not easy. It was never made easy. And be thankful for that.
In your nursing school experience, it’s okay to feel hopeless and helpless in some circumstances you find yourself in. We’re all learning. We’re all getting there. You’ll often feel stupid because studying well doesn’t always make the cut. You still fail subjects. It’s disheartening because you don’t really know what to do anymore.. you just want to pass. Requirements come one after the other and just when you think it can’t get worst, it always will.
It’s crazy how far achieving and aspiring for our dreams take us. It makes us work day and night for the things we think we want. Sometimes, we get fulfillment out of being able to work towards what we think is best for us, while there will also be times we suddenly stop to rethink our steps and doubt ourselves. We’d often be plagued with questions like is this really what I want to do with my life? Am I really going somewhere? Because every time you go on duty, everything just makes you feel insufficient and inadequate. Every time you take that exam, everything just seems so out of this world you don’t even know how to survive.
But I will tell you this…
Don’t hurt. Better be wrong in exams just to make you feel you’re not perfect and you’re far from it.. just to make you feel you need to work harder, drink more coffee, sacrifice more hours of the night, and turn down invitations to parties. Whatever it takes to get all the information you need to save lives. Better be corrected by clinical instructors before drug administration before you ruin a life. Better be wrong on paper than on bedside. Better be wrong here and right now than in the far future.
Don’t stress. At the end of the day, we’re all still learning. And just know: being trained to look for the best answer paves the way for the best interventions. Our minds and hands were trained and crafted for both service and compassion. We are to use it wisely.
Good luck to us, future nurses!
The game plan is actually really simple: study hard, love deeply, live happily, laugh freely and serve passionately. The calling in this field entails so much more than what one will willingly bargain for but the trick is to love what you’re doing. The journey to where you want to be is nothing if you put to heart its cause and act accordingly (This last paragraph has been on many of the reflection papers I passed in college when professors would ask us about (1) how we see ourselves in 20 years, (2) our readiness to face our careers, and (3) our view of the nursing profession).